Finally On the Right Path
My name is Leanne. After several months of great work at the Mission, I can focus on the whole picture of my life. My goals right now are simple: staying sober, looking people in the face when speaking to them, accepting proper criticism, following directions, and looking forward to the next day. But I haven’t forgotten where I came from.
A dysfunctional family, namely. For starters, my mom left me with my aunt and never came back. We moved between houses a lot. One time, I went to camp, came back, and nobody was there. I was sent to foster care, but I acted out and always had a lot of problems. Sometimes I needed restraining, sometimes I was suicidal. It was a bad scene. Then my aunt became an addict. She would keep me in the house and accept support payments from social services to fuel her addiction. All I wanted was to be with my family. But my family didn’t want me, and my aunt didn’t want me. No wonder I had anger issues.
So at 16, I considered myself an adult. I started checking out guys and quickly got pregnant, but knew nothing about having a baby. All I knew was the street life, dealing drugs to get by, living on the streets, and going back and forth to jail. I had my daughter, and then a son, but I didn’t step up to be a mom. At 26, my aunt died, and I was off running. Cocaine became my new baby. I always thought I could hide it, but I lost 40 pounds in 2 months and usually reeked of alcohol. Getting high was way too important; I cared about my life, but I couldn’t stop.
Finally, another aunt and her husband called and got me thrown in jail, with a lot of solitary time. That was a turning point for me. I was paroled to the Boston Rescue Mission, which has a lot to offer. I’m ready to change, but I’m going to have to step up. I’m teaching myself how to be strong, and looking to God for help. The Mission has taught me a new way to live, with a lending hand and a helping heart. And thanks to Mission supporters, I’m heading on the right path.
- Mary Ellen
- Joe D.